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n. The fear that you've lived an ordinary life. While you're in it, life seems epic, tenuous. But when you look back, it seems diminished, humble, almost quaint.

You see an ordinary house on an ordinary street that looks smaller than you remember. You once had wild dreams, but now those look smaller, too. You remember giants and goddesses, but now see ordinary people moving like tokens on a game board.

No matter how many times you rolled the dice, it was always little moves. Do a little work. Take a little rest. Make a little friend. So many moments you could have sworn were supposed to represent something bigger.

You may adore the life you have. Still, you can't shake the feeling something is missing. Maybe when you started building this life, you put so much thought into what might happen that you lost sight of what was happening. As if you'd known this wasn't the world you expected—so you began floating above it, where nobody else could look down. That is, nobody but you.